Hello, World.

I lie to you a lot lately. I don't mean to, but I just do. I am a rather honest person, but with some things I just rather not be honest. I don't lie about things I have done, or stuff that I own, or anything of that nature. It is just mostly about how I am doing. So sorry about that. I kind of want to stop lying, but right about now I am not so sure I am being honest with myself. Oh well. Maybe I will tell you all a dark secret:

I am addicted to cussing.

It's not so dark of a secret or even a secret to many of you. But to my family, I am sorry. I just can't stop. I try regularly though. And I really want to not cuss. It just comes out. But hey, at least I'm not addicted to drugs or porn anything like that.

Speaking of porn, at work today I got to smash a couple of hard drives with a hammer that were apparently stock full of pr0n. I think the cops confiscated the drives and I was given the honor of smashing them. And believe me I smashed the hell out of them. With malice. I smashed so hard that I was told to go outside to finish the job. It was messy. It was awesome. Here is an image to help everyone with this social malady:



Sometimes I feel like I am faced with decisions that are grave enough that whatever choice I make I wont be able to go back on. It is a stressful feeling. I feel like I have a few of these decisions in front of me. But what is worse is the nagging feeling that I am always making the wrong decision.

I will keep you posted. Or maybe I will just lie about it.

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matt

Greetings Earthlings

Dearest family, friends, e-friends, acquaintances, stalkers, and so forth-

Here is my first officially 'blog'. I wont start with the typical "I never thought I would ever blog.." because I am assuming you know that about me.

I am also assuming you know that I am not so hot at writing (technically, creatively, blah blah blah). Please assume that.

So a few things to speak about:
1) Me
2) My life
3) Other people's lives
4) Computers
5) Space
6) Whatever else I feel like

1) I am Matthew born August 1982
2) My life is blessed and good. But sometimes it sucks. Am I alone in that? No. I love being a recluse lately. Big crowds give me anxiety.
3) No comments at this time.
4) Love 'em. I am about to install a few upgrades (PSU, GPU, Optical drive, and possibly a new case). I am running a pre-upgrade benchmark test as I type and likely before you read. I plan on running a post-upgrade benchmark test to compare. I will report in full.
5) I listened to a former astronaut speak at BYU yesterday. He spoke of plasma rockets and nuclear reactors that will pave the way for more efficient, practical and faster space travel and eventually pave the way for satellite hotels and Lunar resorts (possibly Martian as well). I can't wait.
6) Nothing else at this time.

Best Wishes,
EMJ27