Hello, World.

I lie to you a lot lately. I don't mean to, but I just do. I am a rather honest person, but with some things I just rather not be honest. I don't lie about things I have done, or stuff that I own, or anything of that nature. It is just mostly about how I am doing. So sorry about that. I kind of want to stop lying, but right about now I am not so sure I am being honest with myself. Oh well. Maybe I will tell you all a dark secret:

I am addicted to cussing.

It's not so dark of a secret or even a secret to many of you. But to my family, I am sorry. I just can't stop. I try regularly though. And I really want to not cuss. It just comes out. But hey, at least I'm not addicted to drugs or porn anything like that.

Speaking of porn, at work today I got to smash a couple of hard drives with a hammer that were apparently stock full of pr0n. I think the cops confiscated the drives and I was given the honor of smashing them. And believe me I smashed the hell out of them. With malice. I smashed so hard that I was told to go outside to finish the job. It was messy. It was awesome. Here is an image to help everyone with this social malady:



Sometimes I feel like I am faced with decisions that are grave enough that whatever choice I make I wont be able to go back on. It is a stressful feeling. I feel like I have a few of these decisions in front of me. But what is worse is the nagging feeling that I am always making the wrong decision.

I will keep you posted. Or maybe I will just lie about it.

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matt